I am redefining my spirituality again.  While I stay within the confines of my religion (which is roomy and broad), I continue to strengthen my conscious contact with God.  Each Great Event that comes to pass, challenges my character.  

We bought a home (Great Event).  The home is not new or old.  It has very little character, "cookie cutter" is the term, I think.  It is apparent to me the house desperately needed someone in it to make it a home.  It has been a rental all this time, thus it still has some new house look to it.  The walls are builder bland.  The carpet needs to be replaced, but matches the walls.  It is a blank canvas.  I am guessing the guidance is that I get to create?

I have no idea if we can even truly afford the home.  The bank thinks we can.  My parents are encouraging us with a little help.  The bills seem to be intensifying each day and surprisingly our income is not equally increasing!  haha.  On some level, I am surprised by that.  Guess part of my character is a dash of delusion.  I have so much fear when it comes to money. 

Fear is a primary cord-cutting of my hope, my line to God.   

Dear God, 
Please remove my fear. 
Amen